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Journals pdf Journals, ebook Journals, epub Journals, doc Journals, e-pub Journals, Journals 9ae3cf41965 The Lyrics Notebook And Personal Journals Of Kurt Cobain, Iconic Singer Of The Band NirvanaKurt Cobain Filled Dozens Of Notebooks With Lyrics, Drawings, And Writings About His Plans For Nirvana And His Thoughts About Fame, The State Of Music, And The People Who Bought And Sold Him And His Music His Journals Reveal An Artist Who Loved Music, Who Knew The History Of Rock, And Who Was Determined To Define His Place In That History Here Is A Mesmerizing, Incomparable Portrait Of The Most Influential Musician Of His Time


10 thoughts on “Journals

  1. says:

    I bought this for my daughter for her birthday as she s a huge fan I got it for a pretty good deal off of eBay It is used but in great shape There s all kinds of things in it drawings, lyrics, letters even recipes and grocery lists My daughter and I both thought it was pretty cool Loved the look of it The Mead spiral notebook cover reminds me of the notebooks I used to have Apparently the material was originally contained in around 20 different notebooks There were some very funny notes and things But there were also some dark and sad notes that may have been lyrics or just musings One thing I did find sad was that on the front of it it said If you read this you ll judge While it may not be your normal diary or journal although who s to say what s normal we get to see many things including some of the thoughts of a sensitive, funny, sometimes angry and extremely talented young man.I didn t know about all of the controversy over it s release when I bought it I m not sure why I didn t think of it However, now I can see how it would bother some That maybe they should have been kept private and not published However, apparently there was also another quote he wrote that said Please read my diary, look through my things, and figure me out I m not entirely sure how I feel now I guess I can understand both sides.


  2. says:

    The fact that this book exists 1 makes me never want to trust anyone ever ever EVER again 2 leaves me with even less faith in love than I had before I flipped through it Don t worry I watched Imagine afterward and felt much better 3 makes me want to throw up in my mouth a tiny bit Okay, a lot Rivers.4 reminds me that the first time I saw it, it was on a display with a Kurt Cobain action figure I believe this speaks for itself.5 makes me want to sock Courtney Love And I m non violent in theory And I generally don t give a shit about celebrities and their problems.6 tempts me, but not enough to lead me to do anything than glance through it I just can t escape the scummy voyeur feeling that creeps all over me when holding it.7 makes me think hmmmif my life centered around a junkie cuntrag, and I was a misunderstood junkie genius, would I load myself up with a triple whammy dose of heroin and then shoot myself just for good measure Wouldn t that many opiates make me feel too euphoric to hate myself and want to die Or did I8 is sheer ickiness Utter awfulness Holy shitfuckYUCK.


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    I ve been a Nirvana fan since 1993, and after 1994 I collected all the unfortunate articles, magazines, books, and everything you could think of I was sad, confused, and most of all lost I still remember 1994 like it was yesterday and it has stayed with me but life moved on and you either went on or as a few people I ve sadly lost, didn t It stayed with you though, no matter how much you had moved on It was like a dark spot in the back of my mind that I kept to myself, or only thought about alone.What am I talking about JFK s assassination 911 Tienanmen Square No, just a guy who happened to be a musician thrown into international spotlight It all sounds so melodramatic when you really stop and think about it, but for most of us, music exorcises those demons and makes us feel like we re not alone People can understand John Lennon, but to some Kurt Cobain seems like a curmudgeon yes, he wrote a song by that title as well who was unhappy about being a brilliant artist You could argue if he was brilliant.The point is, many of us felt that he was Growing up, I was a depressed, often in trouble, and out of control teenager Music really does calm the savage beast, and it was music I could relate to She should have been a son I m on my time, with everyone I wish I was like you, easily amused I m not like them, but I can pretend I feel stupid and contagious Big cheese, make me He ll give you breathing holes, and you ll think you re happy Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back I just tried hard to have a father, but instead I had a dad Come, as you are, as you were, as I want you to be As a friend When I was an alien, cultures weren t opinions I m so happy, cause today I found my friends They re in my head The sun is gone, but I have a light Can we show our faces now Until the internet it was hard to track down new information It was a thrilling thing to see concerts I d never have been able to go to on You Tube, obscure home movies, translated foreign magazines, rare pictures that became no longer rare, and of course unseen interviews from Kurt Cobain himself My friend and I were awful, we d scout the libraries and search through 5 years worth of any magazines that might have any pictures back in 1994 and once we even were amused to find the band in scarfs used as dresses in a girl magazine My ultimate goals were to get the Sassy magazine, and The Advocate issue We felt like we had found treasure, and we d hungrily go through and magazines searching for something, anything We d either check out the magazines. or rip out the articles Awful, I know, and now I did it, yes I feel bad I still have ever single one of those clippings in a very safe spot in a huge photo album Now I realize how selfish I was, driven by that feeling of trying to find , to try and understand this person who had been the first celebrity who had ever become an unintentional spokesperson for himself and people like us We we re poor, weird, dysfunctional, unhappy with the present, dreading a future that seemed so distant from that of our parents, and we did not want to go along with it For once, it felt like it was okay As I was diagnosed bipolar, it seemed okay because so many other awesome people had been too including Kurt Cobain I don t plan to die, but it shows that even the darkest pit of depression, you can emerge and create something better than you feel about yourself I began to no longer feel ashamed.Not long after his death, Fender released the guitar design he made himself, the Jagstang a hybrid of Fender s Jaguar and Mustang guitars Being a guitar player, I felt like that was the perfect permanent tribute and it became one of my all time favorite presents from my parents I picked up the guitar because I wanted to learn Nirvana songs, pausing Nirvana Unplugged, and asking my dad if he could make out that one chord but I settled for my dad teaching me Smoke on the Water and Stairway to Heaven Then I taught myself tabs, and I opened the code to play any Nirvana song I liked The guitar is dusty, protected, and put aside so I could work towards school and a career.Time moved on, Nirvana stayed my favorite band, but I ceased to talk about them as feverishly as I once did My old friends often ask You still like Nirvana and the answer is of course, I will always love Nirvana They ll always be my favorite band But talking about his ghost seemed overkill Others would spend their lives creating a shrine to his memory, I kept a candle lit, but I needed to make something of my life besides being a die hard fan.I d be on a trip to Universal Studios with my boyfriend, and I remember staring in shock as I was eye level with a Kurt Cobain plastic figurine Kurt Cobain plastic figurines, Kurt Cobain in guitar hero, Kurt Cobain lunch boxes, Kurt Cobain replica shoes I felt very mixed I understand some wanting to grab pieces of a too short puzzle with missing pieces, but I could never bring myself to buy these things I noticed for the first time, this is what people my age did with people like Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, etc People who didn t live through Nirvana grabbed onto these things and it was their way for owning a piece of a time they came after.When Journals was released, everyone came at me with offers to get it for me or push me to buy it I couldn t People from all backgrounds were reading it, and most had nothing but positive things to say People who had known I was a Nirvana for such a long time, would come to me and say they understood exactly what it was that was special but nameless Endless Namless It just felt strange, and I realized how ironic it was that now after all these years of scavenging, I could have the biggest piece of all and I was scared to read it These were his private thoughts, his notebooks left on the very coffee table in his own house He used to yell at his wife not to look The very cover said If you read you ll judge They contained his hopes, fears, anger, and view of the world Maybe he wouldn t have liked this Maybe this is the corporate sell out he had always worried about, like he feared with using his songs for deodorant commercials Should I read it Should I buy it I loved Nirvana, and I loved reading, but every time I d walk into a book store, I d go out of my way to purposely find it just to read the title on the spine and keep walking Come As You Are by Azzerad I read, the band endorsed it, they worked along with the author and said what they wanted to put in it I had the book before the additional epilogue, and I eventually picked up the unfortunately completed, final edition It was really the only book I read besides picking up picture books, and then came the nauseating books on murder theories and the most biographical post 94 was too Courtney Love influenced.Years later, my BFF told me he received Journals as a birthday present, and while he was grateful his first instinct was to give it to me He d browsed through it, smoking and turning the pages It still stinks like cigarettes First though, he actually read it He was touched and saw so much he understood, and so much he didn t He told me it changed his view on anything he d ever thought or known about Kurt Cobain He wasn t into celebrities, neither was I until Nirvana, and he liked music and movies, but he didn t buy into people I never usually did either, but Kurt Cobain was the only exception.One day, my BFF came over and ambushed me with the book I was thankful, but when he left I placed it on a shelf It took a long time before I pulled it out and read it Don t read or you ll judge It was hard to turn the pages, but harder not to I d even heard that he was protective of these notebooks, and that he would get angry at his wife if she even looked at them without his knowledge What was the big deal, right That is what most people think, and I don t know if it was respect for the dead or respect for privacy I don t know what it was, but it felt wrong I also wondered what was left out, what was added Then I opened the book.I devoured the pages and my eyes noticed every way he wrote certain letters, drew certain people, wrote what seemed to be lyrical nonsense, and then statements that contained a Pandora s box of ideas once understood Once you understood, REALLY understood, there was no denying those feelings any Leonardo Di Vinci revolutionized the world with many things through sketches he never intended the public to read, and for some people, Kurt Cobain revolutionized an ideology that some of us held and thought, except it seemed some how that we were okay with the way we felt Someone else felt that way too, and someone else who read this book felt that way, and someone else, and so did he In being such a lonely self proclaimed curmudgeon, his lonely lines made me feel connected We re not alone Some of us are afflicted with depression, we isolate ourselves from a world we don t understand and a world we feel doesn t understand us, and for some, our depression is a consequence of the world around us We were not alone with these thoughts There are many things that came out of this, but for the ones who don t understand they ll see it as a road map to destruction Instead, I think hope and destruction are separated by a thin line, and those of us so possessed with the weight of things in the world, we often find our way or fall.I don t think there is one person deserving to live or special than another, and I still don t There are some people that came and left a mark and happened to reach a large number of people either intentionally or not, and Kurt Cobain was one of these people Every generation has one, and we all cling to them in hope that they ll show us a way through this mess called life But in the end, the only answer is this there is no answer We have to make one for ourselves, and I think that was what Kurt Cobain was trying to do and trying to say He walked a very thin tight rope, and sometimes you have to in order to confront the demons that plague you, real or imaginary that result from the world and yourself.It s a code You ll either read it and understand or relate, or shake your head wondering how so many people could like someone who could take their own life after hitting the top for a couple of years and disappearing forever Perhaps you think their music sounds the same, another rock band, another generation In trying to understand ourselves, our generation also alienates our parents because they don t understand We don t understand them Are we supposed to Journals is a collection of chosen pieces put together of someones work That someone couldn t carry the weight, but he helped make a path for some of us to make sense of how hard it can be, but we have to walk the path and ask our own questions and find our own answers Sadly, he died trying.


  4. says:

    Very personal notes.


  5. says:

    I found this at my local library sale this past summer, read it through, and in the process thought I would give it to Jessie Ann Foley, author of Carnival at Bray, which features a concert with Nirvana, and for which Cobain s spirit seems central Nineties grunge rock This volume is a facsimile of Cobain s actual journals and notebooks and unsent letters I, an old folkie, preceded Nirvana by a long shot, but I was smart enough to know what he represented to the young people of his generation, and I own some of his music If you are a Nirvana fan, this seems like a must have Oh, yeah, I gave it to Jessie for coming to my YA class


  6. says:

    give me leonard cohen s after world, i have very bad posturesif there s no such things as those beautiful corpses, then how can we witness the magnificent lights of Rock n Roll without stepping on them


  7. says:

    It s hard to decipter the difference between a sincere entertainer and a honest swindler Kurt Cobain, the one who change a generation and transcended the deadwas a really complex man He saw his live in a really dark and sad way, but at the same time, somehow, he was positive about the future, but the world turned his back.Are two things about this book, first isn t exactly a journal, in fact there are letters and excerpts from the actual diary, but not complete This is bad No, i feel a little guilty when i start thisbut then he said Please, read my diary Look through my things and figure me out and that feeling gets a little lower I know, it s a excuse but when i saw that some parts aren t here i don t know if i was grateful because i wasn t be sooooo gossiping or angry because i didn t have all the trueand Cobain hates that , honestly my awareness told me choose the first one.When i took that decision i read a honest vision of the world,the music business and a little about Nirvana, but mostly the way he saw himself, he was a outcast, that connects and created music to othersoutcast and never stop feeling this way Wasn t a happy person, wasn t a bad person either just was a incredible talent person who introduces himself like a new voice that wasn t wanna be ear.Would i recommend this book I don t know, reading it is like predict a fall and couldn t do anything to avoid it From language to handwriting, everything indicates that something is changing, it becomes frantic and chaotic maelstrom that drags you into the abyss does nothing but grow, but some of the things he talks about are amazing, everyone should listen read it or spend a little of time trying to descifrate the pictures meaning.


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    0 5 I just don t understand this Cobain guy He slams his Mead The Spiral notebook on a scanner bed, collects a check, and calls it a day Not even inviting a pompous rock journalist to write an introduction How am I supposed to know what he means by THE OLD SCHOOL IS GOING DOWN FAST, FUCK FACE without Kurt Loder voice overs to interpret for me I sorta sense that he is angry at baby boomers But I don t know why What s wrong with recycling Louie Louie and GeeEllOhArEyeAa over and over again in their jammin boomer songs Hardly a reason to get your flannel in a twist, dude Manly men also irritate Cobain, which means he must be some kind of feminist fairy I know that Paglia lady saw his tiny emaciated body on stage and worried for the future of rock music I worry too Real rock needs costume changes, thrusting Robert Plant chests, and blue jeaned Bruce Springsteen asses The only way you re gonna enjoy this book is if you like people who had fresh ideas for their time, who troll corporate music tragically hard, who ponder the nature and purpose of art, who aren t afraid to hide their emotions, and who use every ounce of their 10th grade education to royally fuck up some bullshit.


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    Well, as I expected I felt pretty dirty reading these diaries Not as bad as watching the Montage of Heck garbage though the hand writing at least connects you to a form of reality Cause let s not forget that Cobain was a master at jerking your chain.In any case, this book is for die hard fans only it s a non book with a young man s private notes, including a few letters to some of his friends, drawings, lyrics, plus one or two interesting reflections about drug usage Cobain s drive and dedication to create something meaningful permeate these notes For me that s the main value of this thing it can be inspiring Any band that wants to go anywhere should practice at least 5 times a week This quote was from a letter to a drummer they fired because he couldn t practice enough so much for the slacker ethos Even when he s extremely high and rambling a lot, you can feel, almost smell that single focus, the north star that pulled him forward, up and down The pen can blacken the paper or faint away, and some pages can be hard to read, but you can see the continuous machinations about the craft, the music, the visuals, the band If the songs had not been enough, here you can understand how Nirvana was the quintessential punk band, than any other rationalization.Other things that come out are the contradictions From taking the greatest responsibility of having a child to being addicted to drugs, to the blatant one on the first page Don t read my diary when I m away.Please read my diary And figure me out Someone was it Kim Gordon I m not 100% sure said that only Nirvana were able to use a cheesy guitar chorus effect and actually get away with it without sounding corny That s one way to describe the mystery and aura that always surrounded them For as long as I ve known them I ve asked myself, Why them Well, this is it quite simply, the intensity and the conscious focus beside the talent, of course set them apart and allowed those songs to blast out.


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    Have you ever seen a serial killer movie when they find the secret hideout of the bad guy, and inevitibly there are newspaper clippings tacked to the walls, drawings, quotes, pictures, etc Well, cross that with your High School Underground Notebook and you have Kurt Cobain s Journals It s full of doodles, sketches, and lyric work on Nirvana songs It also has drafts of concert fliers, notes to friends and some diary entries and rants This was one of many journals made by Kurt Cobain, but many of them were accidentally destroyed Water damaged in a Paris hotel bathtub if I remember correctly This particular journal covers the period around the Bleach album and the beginning of writing some songs that would later appear on Nevermind.I like that there was no editing well, that we know of There may have been some pages removed but the writing that IS there was uninhibited As they said in the movie Seven, his mind just poured out on paper If you keep a journal yourself or if you are interested at peering inside the head of a musical genius, and if you are fan enough of Nirvana to own Bleach, then you should at least flip through Kurt Cobain s Journals Conrad Zero


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